When I woke up this morning, I wasn't sure whether I believed in God or not. It was that way yesterday, last month, last year and long before that. I've felt that way for most of my adult life. It's more of an Agnostic-type of attitude. It's not the DISbelief in God, it is just belief that there's no way it can be proven. Scientifically speaking, that's true. But I've been told ALL of my life that's where faith comes in. My standard argument has always been, "How can I base my entire belief system, thoughts and actions on something I can not see, touch or hear?" What little faith I did have was challenged to the breaking point a little over a year ago, so I decided to just live my life now and worry about that later.
As this day has progressed, it is quite possible that I will no longer refer to the word "Faith" as "the other 'F' word."
I have been humbled and my faith in people has been partially restored...there are good people in this world and they aren't always difficult to find if you're headed down the right path. There are even better people who notice that you may be headed down the wrong path and are willing to leave their comfort zone and help you back.
It will take a while for me to able to devote my entire life to whatever belief system I choose to follow, but as for right now, I find it difficult to believe that there isn't some kind of higher power that is looking out for all of us, and I no longer feel forgotten.
What I have always believed is that everything happens for a reason. Even though we may not like it or understand it at certain moments in our lives, something is waiting just ahead that's going to be even bigger and better. And maybe that something will end up being that change that we have needed for so long.
Originally posted on Facebook on November 5, 2009
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